Bullies

Growing up I was bullied, I was bullied because I was not skinny enough, have the perfect skin, teeth and so on. Kids laughed at me, spit in my face in front of others, told me I smelled, did not want to sit next to me on a school bus. I did not have many friends growing up. Those friends that I had talked behind my back, spread rumors, or used me. Boys would not give me a time of day. Many nights I cried myself to sleep. By age 14 I felt as I was alone, with no one to talk to or confine in. I did not know how to express myself to my parents, I did not know if they would understand me or not or how they could help. Year went by of me crying, feeling alone, depressed. At age 15 I decided to take matters into my own hands, I was tired of being bullied and decided to change my appearance. I thought changing my appearance would help me become more socially accepted; I began to lose weight, started using various of products to get rid of my skin problem. I truly believed in my heart if my physical appearance would change people would perceive me differently  and I would be more socially accepted however, getting rid of what  I thought is keeping me away from the society did not help the feeling of being alone go away. By age of 18 I wanted to be accepted so much that I got in with a wrong crowd which led to very bad consequences. After those consequences I realized that it is not what you look like, but it is what you can accomplish in life, what kind of imprint you can leave in this world, what benefit you can bring to the society. To all the girls and boys that are going through what I went through do not change yourself, do not think that if you will change your appearance or act a certain way people will start being nicer to you, or more approving.  You do not need anyone's approval but your own. In your life you will find bullies all around be it in the work place, school, or even your own family. People who bully have issues of their own, and they bully to make themselves feel better. No one is worth your tears, we are all unique. Don't let others tell you otherwise. To all the teenagers that are going through this stage keep your head high, it doesn't matter what your classmates think of you, it doesn't matter what your friends think of you. WHAT MATTERS IS, IS WHAT YOU THINK OF YOURSELF AND BE THE BEST YOU CAN BE FOR YOURSELF. Get up every morning look in the mirror and say to yourself, this is who I am if those people can't accept me for who I am than they are not worth being in my life.